On Hold

I think at times in our lives we have all experienced that feeling of being placed on hold indefinitely. 

That's where I am currently at. 

The last few weeks I have had many questions about this that and the other including where our house situation stands. 

If you have been following for awhile now then you know that we had flooding at the beginning of last year, if you are new and want to read the story it is here >>  It Could Be Worse

So the landlady finally gave us a sort of kind of move date, she said "if she sells another one of her properties then we can stay longer", if not we "might have to move when the kids are out of school for the year"....a lot of if's and might's and maybe's....

 {I also want to note that our landlady has been awesome these last few years.  Her "if's" on the house are all completely understandable. It's just hard for me to be in limbo.}

If's and might's and maybe's put me on serious pins and needles.

Ideally I would LOVE to just buy our house/home {because it truly has become HOME for us in so many ways. 

But I'm not expecting $350,000 to fall into my lap. We did find that we qualify for a mortgage up to $130,000 which means there is no way we can afford to buy this house.  

Life feels like one big game of wait and see and hope and pray right now. It's hard to run my business since I have based it around this house that we live in. I'm not sure if I should open the store {our garage that we turned into a shop} back up when the weather warms up. I'm not sure if I should continue to look for a brick and mortar. I'm not sure if I should get a booth space at an antique mall. I'm not even 100% sure if I should continue to plan our Spring Market, because I have no idea if we will find a house in this town that we can afford. And we have no idea when exactly our landlady will decide it is time for us to move so that she can sell this house.

All of this hinders me even further and makes me frankly a little sick to my stomach because unfortunately I am not a hobby blogger or a hobby crafter 

{not that there is anything wrong with that, those who have husbands who make enough money that they can enjoy their blog time and crafting time without having to earn money to put food on the table are very blessed} but I HAVE to keep doing what I do to support my family and to have money to hopefully buy a new house when the time comes. 

Eek! All of this makes me want to introvert!!

There is a house we are looking at. It comes with this barn

 The house is honestly not ideal {the barn is the selling point}. 

I could make due with it I am sure. It's not exactly what I would want, but it's what we can afford. So we are waiting {there's that magic word again} to see if we get it since it is on short sale.

I think when the time comes to move from this house that nothing will ever feel "right". I've never felt so at home as I do here. 

So that's my story....that is where we are currently at with everything. I'd love to give a more definite update about the current state of all things involving The Vintage Farmhouse, but the only thing I do know for sure is that The Vintage Farmhouse is not going away no matter how long it is actually in the house that started it all or if we have to move far away. We're just going to have to work around all the if's, might's and maybe's and find the best way to go with the flow.