Wednesday, January 8, 2014

On Hold

I think at times in our lives we have all experienced that feeling of being placed on hold indefinitely. 
That's where I am currently at. 
The last few weeks I have had many questions about this that and the other including where our house situation stands. 
If you have been following for awhile now then you know that we had flooding at the beginning of last year, if you are new and want to read the story it is here >>  It Could Be Worse

So the landlady finally gave us a sort of kind of move date, she said "if she sells another one of her properties then we can stay longer", if not we "might have to move when the kids are out of school for the year"....a lot of if's and might's and maybe's....

 {I also want to note that our landlady has been awesome these last few years.  Her "if's" on the house are all completely understandable. It's just hard for me to be in limbo.}
If's and might's and maybe's put me on serious pins and needles.
Ideally I would LOVE to just buy our house/home {because it truly has become HOME for us in so many ways. 
But I'm not expecting $350,000 to fall into my lap. We did find that we qualify for a mortgage up to $130,000 which means there is no way we can afford to buy this house.  

Life feels like one big game of wait and see and hope and pray right now. It's hard to run my business since I have based it around this house that we live in. I'm not sure if I should open the store {our garage that we turned into a shop} back up when the weather warms up. I'm not sure if I should continue to look for a brick and mortar. I'm not sure if I should get a booth space at an antique mall. I'm not even 100% sure if I should continue to plan our Spring Market, because I have no idea if we will find a house in this town that we can afford. And we have no idea when exactly our landlady will decide it is time for us to move so that she can sell this house.
All of this hinders me even further and makes me frankly a little sick to my stomach because unfortunately I am not a hobby blogger or a hobby crafter 
{not that there is anything wrong with that, those who have husbands who make enough money that they can enjoy their blog time and crafting time without having to earn money to put food on the table are very blessed} but I HAVE to keep doing what I do to support my family and to have money to hopefully buy a new house when the time comes. 

Eek! All of this makes me want to introvert!!
There is a house we are looking at. It comes with this barn
 The house is honestly not ideal {the barn is the selling point}. 
I could make due with it I am sure. It's not exactly what I would want, but it's what we can afford. So we are waiting {there's that magic word again} to see if we get it since it is on short sale.
I think when the time comes to move from this house that nothing will ever feel "right". I've never felt so at home as I do here

So that's my story....that is where we are currently at with everything. I'd love to give a more definite update about the current state of all things involving The Vintage Farmhouse, but the only thing I do know for sure is that The Vintage Farmhouse is not going away no matter how long it is actually in the house that started it all or if we have to move far away. We're just going to have to work around all the if's, might's and maybe's and find the best way to go with the flow. 


24 comments:

  1. Oh Nicki...I am so sorry that life has thrown you this curve ball and left you in limbo. The older I get the more I realize that life is not fair, but God is good. I pray for your dreams to come true in this new year no matter what they are. For housing, your business and anything else your heart desires. You are an amazing woman and I know that you will persevere. :)
    Hugs~

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    1. Thanks Sandi. I know we will get through it all and come back out on top, but the waiting is so stinkin hard!!

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  2. Oh girl, been there. The waiting game is one of the hardest to play. More than likely you are a planner and a doer (especially with running a business), so all the "up in the air" feelings are doubly painful. It's easy to say sit back and let G-d handle it, but honestly I believe that we are required to do so much more than just that. Sending good juju to you and your family with the house situation.

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    1. You hit the nail right on the head. Having everything up in the air makes me feel so lost at a time when I need to have something to keep me preoccupied the most.

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  3. Hugs! I understand more than you know. This brought tears to my eyes. I live in an 1890's farmhouse that I saved from the wrecking ball by having it moved to acreage I purchased with my then husband. We began restoring this place to its former glory--an affair happened then a divorce-- I fought with all my might to stay in this place that feels like truly home. It is a lot of work and a huge expense for me alone. My son joined the Marine corps and is overseas. Then a job loss elimination after 15 years there--phased out position eliminated--is having me face my worst fear. I may lose this place, my biggest dream. This house is me. It is so much more than just a building. Know that you are not alone.

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    1. I just cried more too. I'm so sorry that you are going through a similar situation. I hope it works out for you and that you get to keep your home!!

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    2. I love your blog. Follow you on Instagram and Pinterest. I feel like we are kindred spirits... That we would be great friends if we lived close by. Thank you for your kind words. You will be in my thoughts & prayers. -- Jen Jungbluth

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  4. I understand it does look bleakest when you are on the side of the unknown. HOWEVER, you seem to be a fighter and a house is just that.. a house. The next place may not be your dream house however it's a foundation of what you and your family needs and you will make it a HOME! From what I understand the short sale is in the same school district and the property offers you the ability to continue to support your family. Win/Win!

    I don't mean to be flippant... I'm the same way... I worry when I don't know what the future holds but it always seems to workout. Perhaps not as well as expect but sometimes even better than expect. :-)

    I wish you and your family luck and a soft landing into your new place.

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  5. Hello Nicki, I've just recently found your blog and haven't commented so far but feel the need to now. I'm so sorry you are going through this difficult time. Life can be so unpredictable at times and it seems like you can't see through to the other side. Praying that everything works out for you as far as the house and business goes. That barn is incredible though and judging with what you've done to the house you are currently in I'm sure you could make the new house very cozy and homey too. My hubs and I have been redoing a hundred year old house let to him by his father and it's so much work but tons of fun at the same time. Hang in there and stay the course!

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  6. Hello Nicki!
    I´m so sorry that you are going through a very difficult time...life is not always so easy, I know for sure!
    Take your time and take care...

    Best Regards,
    Titti

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  7. I know exactly how you feel and worse. I had a charming storybook home which was sold in my divorce, then I had a lovely apartment which was tool expensive when I lost my job. I had to end up moving in with my mother at 50 years of age! I see no light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm hopeful and still have my dreams :o) Things will work out...good luck to you. That barn is great!

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  8. Change can be difficult sometimes, yet sometimes it turns out for the better. My partner is in the Australian Defence a Force and we have been relocated to a new state and a new house so it is nearly over but the waiting, oh the waiting to know where and when. I know your pain! Good luck. I hope your frustration comes to an end soon.

    http://llibbyslifestyle.blogspot.com.au

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  10. I literally found your blog about 5 minutes ago via Facebook, but I feel compelled to tell you that now would be an excellent time to start planning your dream house. Allow yourself 30 minutes a day to face your fears and worries, then sit down with some paper and pencils ( or start a new blog, that only you see) and start writing down ideas....sketching...Pinning...whatever your preferred method of planning out is. Just start planning it, making it feel real. Because it has been my experience throughout my entire life that when everything is being taken away, it usually means room is being made for blessings to come rolling in.

    Take a deep breath, sweet lady, and dream BIG.

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  11. You know, I've found that I only ever start to feel at home somewhere once I've invested some time, energy, and love into it. The last time we moved, I was so sad to leave our home. But this one is growing on me (at least it would if it weren't so ridiculously designed!...I'm working on fixing its quirks.) So if you have to leave your current home, think of it as a challenge. Look at your new home thinking, "What small thing can I do to make this place home?" I'm currently in a house I don't love, but can't afford to move. So I'm doing things that make me love this house, like putting auto pinstripes on my kitchen picture window for faux diamond panes.Good luck with everything!

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    1. I just looked at your house tour, and I can see why you would hate to leave this house! It's gorgeous! Would the owner consider a rent-to-own arrangement? Wishing you the best.

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  12. Oh Nicki I hope you get settled soon. The barn looks great, here's fingers crossed for you.
    Rosezeeta.

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    1. I am sorry my previous comment offended you. I really hope that things get better for you. I wrote it in the spirit of support and encouragement.

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    2. I am sorry my previous comment offended you. I really hope that things get better for you. I wrote it in the spirit of support and encouragement.

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  14. Hello from Canada!!! Sounds like your having a rough go of it..but don't worry it will all work out in the end..whats meant to be will be!! You seem to be very upbeat all things considered..best of luck! Chrissy

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  15. Ugh. I hate decision-making when all the choices aren't even clear. But I think it's true that any house can be a home if there's even one place that you make your own. Lots of time I feel this isn't my house as much as my husband's or my kids' (their crap is everywhere!!!). I have one part of a room with my favorite chair, pillow, picture, and none of their clutter and I can sit there and feel completely at home. I hope this gets sorted out for you soon so you can start claiming a new space as your own! Stevie @ ruffledfeathersandspilledmilk.com

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  16. I sure hope everything works out for the best for you and I am sure it will.
    Love that big red barn
    I hate that we can't all live where and in the kind of house that is in our souls

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  17. Nicki, I have been following you since 2011 and I feel so bad for you! You put so much work into your house to make it a home for you and your family. However, I am going to tell you something that sounds so cliche, but is so true.....when one door closes in our life , another opens...to bigger and much better things. Who knows, perhaps this barn will be your personal studio which will allow you to create a much more lucrative income for your family...good things are around the corner for you....I just know it...Keep the faith! Big hugs from NWIndiana!!!!!!

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